So let's just go ahead and focus on today. Today and everything that is basically the result of those "lost" days.
In brief: The truth is that staying focused on my eldest gave me little to no time for myself beyond sitting somewhere and staring into nothingness. I found that I didn't really like blogging via my mobile phone or my tablet. The speed with which I needed to type so I can quickly capture my thoughts just didn't match the speed with which I could work on either unit.
So eventually, I gave up. Just quietly gave up.
But right now I feel I need to give myself this time to sit back and be able to reflect on how the changes around me have affected and changed me. And to do that, I put in a work request to my husband that he allow me to purchase a laptop so I can work outside our home office--where it can get too hot and/or humid for a newborn--while tending to our coming little one.
Now here I am, getting ready to get myself back into the work force, so to speak.
Before I had our eldest, I was a rather prolific freelance online writer. I might actually touch base with the people I used to write for or perhaps apply for new jobs. I'll also be sending in my amateur photographer resume to a photographer I quite like and respect for his art.
I'm hoping that by doing something creative (and pays well) I'll be able to give myself a little more balance and some respite from the crazy that we can look forward to experiencing once our second is born.

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